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I cried so hard yesterday, I had my first puffy eyes for 2013 because of school matters, how stupid it is? We had our classes changed, teacher just told us that she was actually not closing one class, but closed all 7 classes and open 6 classes and reshuffling the students all over again. And we knew the results by the second last period during school session. Nobody have their moods to study anymore, everyone are either crying or laughing. It was so weird, the whole atmosphere was so hard. How can people cry and laugh at the same time? Well, I was crying, and practically laughing too. I felt like a physcho. Li Ling has been my table pal for 1 year, ever since form 1 we've been inseparable and now we're parting, I can't imagine how closed we've been or it's just me being weak that I'm so easily getting closed with people and end up crying when people leave. She cried too, she was okay at first but when I can't help and lowered my head to cry and not let her see, she know me well and without seeing my eyes she had cried even harder than me. She's going to 3K, with Darrel Tan. We are the four man group in class - Kar Lock, Li Ling, Darrel Tan and me. Well, I had to tell you that the two boys were students that seldom does homework, the bad bad guys and I'm a prefect. But they're different, they're the best kind of people you can meet. We can joke around and do things that not even people can understand. When we're together it's just the four of us, there's no one else. But this thing came, so evil, I don't know why I'm still surprised. We're meant to be separated. Everybody are. Darren and Ai Lin, separated. Chin Wei and Jee Hong, separated. Lay Ying and Seng Meng, separated. And a lot more. It was a tragedy. An EPSILON legend was over, some other people from other classes came in. No more pure Epsilons. LC came in, nothing could go more worse. So then I let myself relaxed and wept worse. Felicia and Jasmine came in, I'm glad they are, their results will be better in here. One Alpha dropped in, he was good, means that I have a new competitor. Jia Jun just asked me to take care of him, HAHAHAH, rivals don't take care of rivals :P Anyway that "chui shui feng" didn't leave, I'm damn angry why are things so unfair. He even came and tell Darrel he stayed, more like being sarcastic to his leaving. I swear I'll make you pay "gao gao" this first term exam. Before the bell rang, I requested a hug from Li Ling, I don't dare to speak much, I'm worried the tears will fall again. So we hug, I immediately knew I was wrong. She held my back so hard, I knew that she don't want to say anything too, but I knew what she meant. I cried again and hug her more tightly, I hear her sobbing at my back, I can't help not looking at her face. Then we let go, and I was a little angry with myself being so weak and pulled out another tissue and wipe my tears again. Not saying anything too after the hug. The bell rang just after I threw away all the dampen tissues. Everyone looks so retarted with the puffy eyes and red cheeks, even I looked like a potato. And I went back to my place and grab my bag, I wasn't really in a hurry tho. And Darrel told me something soft, he said "I've never had such feeling that I don't even want to leave this class at all." I looked up and him, I really don't know what to say, he kept comforting me just now when I'm crying. The lump in my throat grew bigger and water dampen my eyes again. I immediately think back that it was the last time he's going to sit in front of me and the last time I'll kick his uniform from behind again. I smiled faintly at him. He smiled back and walk out from his seat very slowly. I come from behind and followed him until the door of the class, he stopped there a few seconds and stepped out and without turning his head, he walked down the corridor. I stepped out the class with no toughness since I'm coming back. Kenji was out there waiting for me, he actually saw my face and asked me what happened but I refused to tell him just now. He laughed when he saw my face, I know it must've been very puffy. He asked what happened I told him and Lemon came and asked me where I go so I said I was staying and he asked why I was crying then I replied Li Ling went to 3K, and he was like "It's just next class!" Yeah, indeed it is, so I said "I'm lazy" He laughed and asked "So want me carry?" I eventually laughed at the joke and I said "No" XD So after that I walked down with Kenji and he left for St John. I met Felicia and Jasmine after that, they came around me I cried immediately seeing their face knowing they had cried too. So they two entered my class and they both hated LC and knew that she entered too. And then I met Marcus with Nick, he was shocked seeing my eyes so puffy. XD Then I walked around talking with Jasmine after Felicia went back. And then I walked with they guys and met Marcus again, holding his stinky shoes, HAHAHAH. He just finished playing football. We talked with a gang, I tried to untie with his shoelaces. Failed every attempt anyway. And then Nick came and we talked more and more, just more pervert with him holding my perks book. So I think we talked around 45 minutes and then the guys wanted to go back so we went back together. Before we left, I managed to pull Marcus' shoelaces and Nick pulled mine, I pulled him too. And then with a laugh I turned my back and walk away.
We may have walked separately, but we're still together, as one. :')
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有些傷痕像場大火, 把心燒焦難以復活
可是我 想要忘了, 恐懼如何把我上鎖 期待陽光熾熱, 愛來的時刻 能用力去擁抱著 多幸福就多快樂, 不讓未知成為負荷 投入的留下了每一刻, 不怕的人, 最富有 :') |